Cutting Myself

Today was a rough day. I had major cravings to start cutting myself again. The only reason that i didn't is because i am wearing the silly bandz that my nephew gave me. I look at it and it stops me from cutting. I don't know if anyone else is going to understand why it is difficult not to cut unless you have been there. I get overwhelmed with all these different emotions at once like panic, anger, self loathing, etc... and i just look for a quick release and cutting helps but i have not done it in 2 months.  I am proud of myself but i know that this is an every day battle. Love you and i will talk to you again soon.