Bad Day!!!!

Today was not a good day. It seems that the saying is true. When you take one step forward, you take two steps back. Today at work I got a cut. That wouldn't be a big deal to other people but to me it was because I used to be a cutter. I thought I was doing great and then I got cut and it was like no time had past. It was like these last couple of months never happened. I could feel myself going back into that frame of mind. What scared me is that it felt good and comfortable to go back to that state of mind. I don't know, maybe i need help but I can't help feeling like it is a wrong to go get help. All i know is writing this out helps even if no one ever reads this. I will talk to you tomorrow night.