Cancer Update and I am in awe of my Father

It has been a crazy couple of days. After the 911 incident, I have been in panic mode every time I hear a noise from my father. It is stressing me out. I will say that I am in awe of my father. With everything he is going through, you would think that he would be so angry and want to shut out the world but he is the opposite. Recap here--- He started with a lesion on the esophagus which spread to other places like his liver,stomach,heart,hip,rib cage, and blood. He also started with blood clots in his lungs and legs and arthritis in his spine. If I was him I would lock myself in my room and never come out but he is taking it day by day and just enjoying life. I am doing everything I can to try and make things better for him but I keep feeling like I am not doing enough for him and I have this constant anxious feeling all the time. We got some news from the doctor. He said if my father continues getting chemo then he will have about a year left and if he stops treatment then he will have about 6 months left. They are giving him a 3 week break from the chemo so he has 3 weeks to decide what he wants to do. It is his decision so I guess I will just have to wait to see what he decides but I have to say that I can not imagine my life without my father in it. He is my best friend. I will keep you updated. Have a great weekend and I will talk to you again soon.