My Father's Cancer Update and EMT/COPS Are Amazing

Update time. Wednesday when I got home from work, my parents and I started having some dinner and we had to call 911 again because my father got something stuck in his throat again. 2 cops showed up and then 3 EMT guys showed up. After a while the piece in his throat got unstuck and all the guys left after telling us that my father was dehydrated. After they left, my father just broke down crying saying that he just wanted to die and that he was sick of fighting. I am going to have to severely cut back my hours at work because I can not leave him alone at all(hopefully I won't lose my job). Another thing has happened. I am finding it hard to care about anything anymore. Everything that I used to love to do just feels like work to me now. I know this will sound selfish but I am just getting really tired of everything. The worst is this feeling of uselessness and feeling like my whole world is out of control. I wish I could just snap my fingers and all this would be gone. If I could I would take the cancer myself just so my father did not have to deal with it. I will end this post with this.... The cop and EMT guys that showed up at my house that day were so nice and understanding. They helped my father and calmed me down to. They where amazing.