GOOD NEWS/BAD NEWS

GOOD NEWS So, My father has been going to get radiation for 2 weeks so far to shrink the lesion in his esophagus. Only 2 weeks into his 7 weeks of radiation and I can already say that it is working. Before this, he could only be on liquids because everything else got stuck in his throat. He even tried cottage cheese one time and it also got stuck. Now, after 2 weeks of radiation, he is able to eat soft food. Tonight he had pasta. It is such a relief to be able to make something for my father to eat and knowing I won't have to call 911 cause of food getting stuck. BAD NEWS We found out that the cancer cells in my fathers liver got worse and the whole liver is full of cancer cells. He is also getting a lot of nose bleeds. I have this pit in my stomach that is telling me that this is the start of a downward spiral to the end. It seems like we are taking 1 step forward and 5 steps backwards. My mind is starting to shut down. I realize I am starting to act like my old self who hated being around people and never talked but I can't help it. I just feel like going to bed and never waking up again. I will try and start posting again more often but I am just so tired, physically and emotionally but I will try. Talk to you guys later.